My house is in Alvai. I had to leave that house to safeguard my children from the Indian army. There is a small Amman (mother goddess) temple in front of my house. I consider that goddess as my intimate friend. Whenever I was faced with a crisis I engaged in a silent conversation with her. Twenty-five years back I abandoned her with my house when I moved to Colombo. I believe that she is still safeguarding my property but I carry the guilt because I have let her down.